The Men Before Me

The Men Before Me

San Elijo State Beach, Cardiff, California

Hands

Hands

I think the way a person holds your hand tells you a lot about how they'll handle your heart, if the need arises.

I'd like more opportunities to hold hands.

North Park, California

Bonheur

Bonheur

The real photo that goes with this is trapped in my brain:

It's a deep sky, with fast-moving clouds and circling birds. There are a few trees on the edge of the frame, but they're not important.

The wind is important. It's loud and cool, and swirls with the sound of kids on a playground above my head. The grass is warm. The sun is kind to my skin.

My head isn't on her arm, yet.

San Diego, California

One-By-One

One-By-One

We discovered that bike in the back of her parents' garage. It was heavy and beautiful, made in 1971 or 1972 - I don't remember, anymore. It seemed so important at the time.

Coronado, California

Secrets

Secrets

This was a reckless evening. I woke up to get some water, and snapped the photo on the way back to bed.

She was always this beautiful.

San Diego, California

Green Galoshes

Green Galoshes

She was dancing through the Castro, through everything. Her name was Elise.

San Francisco, California

Fireflies

Fireflies

It was Ohio and I was nine.

If you look closely, you can find Maddy.

San Diego, California

Wrong

Wrong

In a silver Saturn through the Cuyamaca Mountains. It was a January. We survived, for a while.

Anaheim, California

You Could

You Could

I was living in a small apartment on Illinois Street. The red couch was eventually left in an alley.

San Diego, California

I Never

I Never

Taken outside of iO West.

Los Angeles, California

Our Little Wall

Our Little Wall

We spent a few days of that summer on a small island and were perfectly happy, then.

Venice, Italy.

Endurable

Endurable

San Diego, California

Be Prepared

Be Prepared

It took a long time to get here, because she would stop and become friends with every flower.

Sometimes the little things are the big things.

Anza-Borrego Desert, California

Ambition

Ambition

This man was very handsome. My girlfriend talked about him for days.

San Francisco, California

Snow Day

Snow Day

This was the first time that I saw falling snow. I was on a trip with four friends, two couples.

Julian, California

Smiles

Smiles

This photo still makes me laugh. It's almost perfect, and was taken at the bottom of Lombard Street.

San Francisco, California

You'll Survive

You'll Survive

San Diego, California

Lines

Lines

We wandered around the city for a few hours and finally came to Lake Michigan. And that was the end of it.

Chicago, Illinois

Only You

Only You

These little fellows were living in a thrift store for the longest time. Looking back, I should have brought them home.

La Mesa, California

Libertas

Libertas

Long-linger the lines...

Chicago, Illinois

Remissio

Remissio

...on a broken heart.

San Diego, California

Apatheism

Apatheism

One of the last nights I spent with Claire. I think of her boots a lot.

She lives in New York now, which fits.

Mission Beach, California

31 Ghosts

31 Ghosts

This Spring was a girl.

Julian, California

Live Deliberately

Live Deliberately

Taken on a secret hill that I would visit every morning. Those trees don't exist anymore.

San Diego, California

1999

1999

It turns out that we weren't. The Volvo was green, and her name was Lisa.

Mission Beach, California

Porch Lights

Porch Lights

Taken from a passenger seat.

Big Sur, California

Margaritas

Margaritas

She's still one of my dearest friends. She's named after a dog.

Point Loma, California

Sunken Treasures

Sunken Treasures

This is about a proposal that never happened.

La Jolla, California

Sore Feet

Sore Feet

We were staying at the Renior Hotel on McAllister Street. I wasn't feeling well, and she endured my spirit admirably.

San Francisco, California

Falling Stars

Falling Stars

Anza-Borrego Desert, California

Nobody's Anything

Nobody's Anything

We shared a few stops on the L. I tried to say hello.

Chicago, Illinois

Road Trip

Road Trip

New Year's Eve, San Francisco, California

His Hand

His Hand

The hand belonged to a person named Luis. The heart wasn't mine, either.

London, England

King Khalif

King Khalif

I actually didn't write these words, but I did steal them off of an epitaph. I think they're very beautiful.

The man I saw earlier in the day. He had been feeding birds, but was out of bread.

San Francisco, California

Beauty Will Find It

Beauty Will Find It

One of the final photos I had the pleasure of taking with that camera. I wore it down to the nub.

San Diego, California

Three Ideas

Three Ideas

Marina and I met a little girl named Destiny playing in this fountain. It's not important, I guess, just notable.

Balboa Park, San Diego, California

Advice From The Bay

Advice From The Bay

I fell asleep on this bench. I was still drunk from the night before.

Treasure Island, San Francisco, California

Edge of Spring

Edge of Spring

Del Mar, California

Edge of Autumn

Edge of Autumn

Anza-Borrege Desert, California

Emily

Emily

She served me coffee when nobody else would. She was wearing fake fairy wings at the time, the kind with elastic bands.

San Francisco, California

Clouds

Clouds

Confession: Maddy took this photo. It's wonderful.

San Francisco, California

I'd Rather

I'd Rather

La Jolla, California

One Day

One Day

I would ride past this car every morning. It was so lovely for such a neglected thing.

North Park, California

Age Has Forgot

Age Has Forgot

The man and this boy were strangers to one another.

They both seemed comfortable enough.

North Park, California

Divinity

Divinity

"My homeboy painted that." - a passerby

Los Angeles, California

Booda

Booda

Taken on the northern side of the Golden Gate Bridge.

Marin County, California

All You Need

All You Need

Torrey Pines, California

A Mother's Love

A Mother's Love

There was a man on the pier telling the ocean that it had been a bad mother. He was very upset and had a facial tattoo.

We didn't know what to do.

Pacific Beach, California